I think, I need to ......swallow

This is crazy insane! I've been talking to Clint via nexopia for just over the last two hours. Not only that.....I started the conversation. I must admit a part of me didnt exspect hime to answer at alll, and yet 99.3% of me knew he would. Because that is the man I know. And so we talk, about everything and anything................wait no, that not true, it is another clever deception of my mind. I cant, I cant bring myself to tell him now what I've been want so desperatly to tell him in person for the last week or so, I just cant do it. I part of my wonders why, and a part of my knows damn well.